Writing neurosis; attention meta (not: attention! Meta! *g*)

So, whenever I've posted new fic to my website and announced it in LJ, I tend to check my website stats the next day or so, because I do want to know about the people who read my stuff. Not writing *for* an audience does *not* equal not being curious about the audience you do acquire - and it's simply a fact that if I put something online, it will be read, and yes, I am curious about those invisible strangers who consume something that was produced by my brain. (That, in itself, is not neurotic, I think.)

So... 97 hits since posting.

(Possibly) little known fact: I can see who reads my story ( Read more... )

Arrgh. Okay, this got long but not necessarily clearer, but I'm too frelling hungry to continue writing, or clarifying. And hey, it's my partyLJ, I can cryramble if I want to. *g*

Need food now.

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Someone's mysteriously found this post via metafandom, though I can't see anything there? Oh well, I don't mind either way. So, hi to anyone who wanders in from that direction. Oh, and a lot of people have reacted to this with apologies. Folks: this is not necessary. This wasn't about guilt tripping you; it was about my own neurosis. Neurosis as in 'unhealthy behaviour/thinking pattern'. So, no reason for you to apologise. The problem is located in my psyche, not your behaviour. :-)

Need sleep now.

I think I'm a zombie.

I just cut myself on a mysteriously broken glass (it basically just... broke, without any discernible reason. It was just standing beside my bed, peacefully, and broke. I wasn't even near it. *boggles*), a long cut along the length of my thumb, fairly deep from the look of it - and there's absolutely no blood!

It hurts, though.

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Random fic and meta recs I meant to do days, or in one case even weeks ago:

beccatoria, who has complicated feelings about fanfic, nevertheless produces gorgeous fic, for instance this BSG fic, written from the POV of minor character Maya and set during the Cylon occupation of New Caprica. (I like that we both write about Mayas who are such minor characters in their respective canons that they may as well be original characters in fic. *g*)

amonitrate writes stunningly beautiful, surreal, criminally ignored Twin Peaks fic here. And I just noticed that the comment I thought I'd left when I read it at work recently apparently didn't get through or whatever, so when I'm done reccing I'll head over there and comment (again).

sylviavolk2000 has some interesting - and amusingly phrased - thoughts about structure in her writing here. If you check a few entries back and a few ahead from there, you'll also find other interesting meta posts about writing there. All very different from how I write, and probably very different from how you write ;-) but I always find it interesting to read other people's thoughts about writing.