Art

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I just looked through all my old paintings and drawings, my materials - watercolours, ink, brushes, pens, my books about medieval art... It's a hobby I gave up nearly ten years ago.

God, I was *good*! I'd forgotten.

I should just divide my life up equally between writing, jewellery making and painting. Who needs uni or a job?

Right. Anyone wanna sponsor me?

*sigh*

Gonna get some of this stuff scanned sometime, to put it up on my website. A monument to the Hmpf that could have been.

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Thing is... I'm actually good enough, probably, to do some of these things on at *least* a semi-professional level (well, I'm officially a professional jeweller, but I'm so out of practice it's almost not true anymore). There *are* people who are making a living from this kind of stuff who aren't any better at it than I am. I just *know* a bit about what it means to make a living like this, and so I know it requires *massive* amounts of work and still only results in a very precarious living, unless you're exceptionally lucky. And I'm just too afraid to make the leap. To take that kind of chance.

I suppose I can still do this if I don't find a job after uni.

(Hmpf: Planning a life to fail. And I'd probably be happy about it, on some level. No hindrances anymore to that coveted bohemian lifestyle once you've thoroughly failed in 'normal' society...)

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Well, I'd just about forgotten about it, too! *g*

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I was *really* surprised by how good some of this stuff was. One piece fell out of a book where apparently I'd used it as a bookmark, and it just sort of... stunned me. Like, "did I *really* make this?" I'd completely forgotten about most of it. Will get it scanned, I promise. There isn't much left, I'm afraid - I gave most of it away, way back when. But looking at the stuff that's left reminded me - somewhat painfully - of some great ideas I had back then, for really ambitious pieces I never got around to.

Maybe someday...