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hmpfI just looked through all my old paintings and drawings, my materials - watercolours, ink, brushes, pens, my books about medieval art... It's a hobby I gave up nearly ten years ago.
God, I was *good*! I'd forgotten.
I should just divide my life up equally between writing, jewellery making and painting. Who needs uni or a job?
Right. Anyone wanna sponsor me?
*sigh*
Gonna get some of this stuff scanned sometime, to put it up on my website. A monument to the Hmpf that could have been.
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Thing is... I'm actually good enough, probably, to do some of these things on at *least* a semi-professional level (well, I'm officially a professional jeweller, but I'm so out of practice it's almost not true anymore). There *are* people who are making a living from this kind of stuff who aren't any better at it than I am. I just *know* a bit about what it means to make a living like this, and so I know it requires *massive* amounts of work and still only results in a very precarious living, unless you're exceptionally lucky. And I'm just too afraid to make the leap. To take that kind of chance.
I suppose I can still do this if I don't find a job after uni.
(Hmpf: Planning a life to fail. And I'd probably be happy about it, on some level. No hindrances anymore to that coveted bohemian lifestyle once you've thoroughly failed in 'normal' society...)
God, I was *good*! I'd forgotten.
I should just divide my life up equally between writing, jewellery making and painting. Who needs uni or a job?
Right. Anyone wanna sponsor me?
*sigh*
Gonna get some of this stuff scanned sometime, to put it up on my website. A monument to the Hmpf that could have been.
***
Thing is... I'm actually good enough, probably, to do some of these things on at *least* a semi-professional level (well, I'm officially a professional jeweller, but I'm so out of practice it's almost not true anymore). There *are* people who are making a living from this kind of stuff who aren't any better at it than I am. I just *know* a bit about what it means to make a living like this, and so I know it requires *massive* amounts of work and still only results in a very precarious living, unless you're exceptionally lucky. And I'm just too afraid to make the leap. To take that kind of chance.
I suppose I can still do this if I don't find a job after uni.
(Hmpf: Planning a life to fail. And I'd probably be happy about it, on some level. No hindrances anymore to that coveted bohemian lifestyle once you've thoroughly failed in 'normal' society...)
