Old inferiority complex transmogrified

[hmpf]

Back in the days when I began to take writing fanfic seriously, I discovered I couldn't enjoy reading fanfic in the fandoms I was writing anymore - especially really good fanfic. I compared myself to the writers I was reading, and found myself lacking, all too often. That's why I never read most of the really famous Farscape fan writers who had begun their ascent just around the time I started writing Farscape. That's why I nearly completely stopped reading Highlander. Thankfully, I've recently gotten over that silly inferiority complex thing, at least where my writing is concerned. I can enjoy fanfic in my writing fandoms again, and I'm glad of that. Partly, I think, this has to do with my increased belief in my skill (or at least potential) as a writer. So, I thought I had left that complex behind for good.

Well, apparently not. 'Cause now it's beginning to interfere with my enjoyment of fanvids.

Today, legendary vidder Luminosity posted a Life On Mars vid. I downloaded it, but I'm almost terrified of watching it. I know I'm being silly - especially since comparing myself to Luminosity is nothing short of hubris - yet I can't help myself.

Oh, I'll watch it eventually, I'm sure.

But, yeah, something in me's trembling at the thought, and not with pleasant anticipation as it should.

Silly, eh?

Comments

Re: As for reputations...

[chasarumba.livejournal.com]

Just very quickly and I'll be back with more ramblings later... ;)

And I'm not saying this to flatter you - just to show you that I can see why you wouldn't be all *that* impressed by Luminosity.

Oh, I'm very impressed with her -- she's one of the first vidders I watched with awe and things like Scooby Road moved me to tears (the utter *scope* of it combined with her love and knowledge of Buffy...staggering). I'm just saying that I don't put too much stock in reputations...a "nobody" vidder can produce an utterly spectacular vid that gets no attention/recognition and a revered vidder can certainly turn out a clunker that people oooh and aahhhh over anyway...because of reputation.

And top three? Gah. I've a long way to fall, then :)

Reputations

[hmpf.livejournal.com]

Oh, definitely - never rely entirely on reputations. That's why I'm such a completist in Farscape vidding fandom. I want to know all the unknown gems, as well.

One of my favourite vids, for example, is schala's "El Tango de Roxanne". It's a bit of a shame that it's only available in a fairly crappy quicktime version - but if you look past the pixelation, it has everything: great concept, consistent narrative, excellent editing... yet schala only ever did two vids, and unfortunately fandom often forgets people who don't produce large quantities of stuff.

BTW: Odd, I don't get notifications for replies from you anymore.