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There are a million things I need to do for work, all URGENTURGENTURGENTURGENT. There are a million things I need to do outside of work, all URGENTURGENTURGENTURGENT SO MANY MISSED DEADLINES SO MANY FAILURES OF COMMUNICATION SO MUCH GUILT SO MUCH POSSIBLE LEGAL TROUBLE SO MUCH ARRRRRGH for every thing I do ten new ones crop up the to do list never gets shorter never never never never so much fucking missed sleep so much chaos total mess everywhere months before this place will look like a flat instead of a dump hungry thirsty so fucking tired so much work to do teaching in just a few hours ill-prepared again fucking useless sleepless need to cry can't need to talk can't need to sleep need to clean up this mess need to read plan structure collect questions ideas concepts need sleep can't sleep too busy too tense too tired So much URGENTURGENTURGENT stuff to do book a hotel for next week get rid of furniture before Thursday research stuff for Thursday set up new computer at work buy parts for old computer at home write so fucking many very very very important e-mails contact former roommates landlord think about money plan organise keep in mind dates appointments don't forget stuff book room for film screening fill out a million forms should have filled them out months ago should have done all this days/weeks/months ago shouldn't have taken a day off on Sunday can't afford days off weekend isn't for taking a day off it's for working on stuff you didn't manage during the week I need to learn that believe that live that not get stupid breakdowns of motivation stupid lack-of-energy phases stupid mini-burnouts I really really can't afford now

Everythingeverythingeverything's urgent everything