Thinking about aborting...
Oct. 14th, 2008 01:57 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
hmpf... my thesis project. I think we're allowed two attempts... I'd have to wait for the next sign-up period to start a new one, of course.
Not sure if it's possible to just stop and start something else, though. Possibly it would take an official rejection of my current thesis before I'd be allowed a retry.
'course, it would look crappy on my C.V., and would mean I'd be nearly 34 when finishing uni... Then again, I do fairly sincerely believe society's going to go to hell in the next few decades anyway, and don't particularly believe that even in the case of it not going to hell my degree would mean shit. So I'm kind of, 'feh,' about my job prospects and stuff, at the moment.
Frankly, I don't think I ever seriously believed in something like a career being in my future, and I think in the past few years I've begun to understand more and more clearly that my future trajectory needs to lead further *out* of society's mainstream instead of further in. Art. Writing. Political activism. Whatever. Poverty, yes, probably, but who cares?
Maybe I need one more failure to finally... propel myself out of the remains of my normal, 'respectable' life...
Not sure if it's possible to just stop and start something else, though. Possibly it would take an official rejection of my current thesis before I'd be allowed a retry.
'course, it would look crappy on my C.V., and would mean I'd be nearly 34 when finishing uni... Then again, I do fairly sincerely believe society's going to go to hell in the next few decades anyway, and don't particularly believe that even in the case of it not going to hell my degree would mean shit. So I'm kind of, 'feh,' about my job prospects and stuff, at the moment.
Frankly, I don't think I ever seriously believed in something like a career being in my future, and I think in the past few years I've begun to understand more and more clearly that my future trajectory needs to lead further *out* of society's mainstream instead of further in. Art. Writing. Political activism. Whatever. Poverty, yes, probably, but who cares?
Maybe I need one more failure to finally... propel myself out of the remains of my normal, 'respectable' life...
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Re: Oh, und...
Date: 2008-10-14 04:06 pm (UTC)Du sagst, dass Du nicht studierst, um erfolgreich zu sein oder dank Deines Studienabschlusses Deinen Lebensunterhalt finanzieren zu können - die Einschätzung ist aufgrund Deines Lebensalters und des Studienfaches wahrscheinlich sehr realisitisch. Ich kenne so einige, die ein Studienfach wie Du es hast in der Regelzeit durchgezogen haben und ihr Geld nun anderweitig verdienen, weil in den Fächern nur sehr wenige Jobs zur Verfügung stehen. Kann Deine Motivation für "alle möglichen Gründe" also nachvollziehen, wie immer die sein mögen.
Was ich aber nicht verstehe, ist, dass Du Dich psychisch so stark unter Druck setzt. Du sagst selbst, es geht Dir nicht um eine gute Note oder einen Beruf, warum also machst Du Dich so fertig für diese Arbeit?
Ob aus Interesse am Thema oder ob Du Dir was mit der MA beweisen willst... Ich kann Dir nur raten, Deine Gesundheit nicht auf's Spiel zu setzen. Die Eßstörungen allein sollten bei Dir schon alle Alarmglocken klingeln lassen.
Nur meine Meinung.