I love fic so much.

<3

I should read it on a more regular basis, instead of binging on it once every five years or so.

But that's kind of the central problem of my life, isn't it? I should find ways to do *everything* on a more regular basis. Eat well. Sleep well. Stay in contact with family and friends (including reading LJ!). Exercise. WRITE. Make jewellery. Open my fucking mail.

And my working life could profit from an approach characterised by more regularity, too.

That's sort of what I want: a life where there's a well-defined space for everything important - the fundamentals (eating, sleeping), the officially important stuff (work, taking care of the administration of everyday life), and the emotionally important stuff (friends, creative pursuits).

Can't be *that* difficult, other people are managing it. There has to be a way.

Though the *nice* thing about only reading fic every five years...

is that when you do go back to it, there's usually a huge "library" of new stuff for you to dive into.

Though that's a problem, too, because it's kind of time-consuming to *really* dive in, when there's five years' worth of material. And, believe it or not, there are other things I should be doing, too. :D

One month into the archive, and...

already with the fear of accidentally lifting phrases. Arrgh.

Also, renewed realisation I'll never be able to write a good Gene, because I just lack the fluency in colloquial British English that's necessary for that. Which wouldn't be so bad, because three quarters of my unfinished fics don't really require much Gene - I try to write to my strengths - but I've lately come to realise that the fourth one really does...

OMG

This, my fingers also weren't made for.

Forget about the fingers - where do I even put my *arm*???

I miss people.

But the idea of phoning someone is still scary.


I think I may do an exploratory foray into LJ reading tonight. See how many people are even still around. (I've been told there's been an exodus.)

Maybe make a filter for reading just a few people, to keep it manageable.

Reading a few again would be a huge step forward, compared to years of not reading anybody.

Oh my. What an interesting...

... tag.

Jeez. Yeah, trouble's been brewing for a while here.

(Not bothering to f-lock this because there's years and years of it, all over my blog - the only way to keep it from public view would be to f-lock my entire LJ. But all this has been out there so many years it would be silly to do that now. Can't put the toothpaste back in the tube, so I'm not even gonna try.)