Of course, I'm not really drunk.
Jul. 12th, 2002 01:28 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
hmpfHalf a caipirinha and a glass of plum wine aren't enough even to render a 'cheap date' like me drunk, these days. But I am slightly tipsy.
So... had a little bout of depression yesterday, visiting my parents. It wasn't their fault, but something about being there depressed me. Strange. Part of it actually had not much to do with my parents. It was my recurring 'friendship is transitory, alas' mood; I kinda became aware that I will lose many of the contacts I have at the moment again when I leave this city to study elsewhere. It's a painful realization, and I want to believe I could keep my friends close to me, at least figuratively, but I already went through one such phase of forced separation, and I know the drifting apart is not something that can be avoided completely. So, I'm a little sad in advance. I have every intention of 'holding on' to the people who are close to me now, but life may object... either on my side or on theirs. I think I might write a Methos fanfic about the loss of friends due to moving on, sometime...
On a more positive note, I had a nice talk with one of my professors yesterday and due to this talk I now have a subject for one of my papers that I *really* like. I'm to write about the construction of 'distinction' by popular culture audiences and producers, as exemplified by Farscape fandom and writers! Yay! I actually managed to find a subject that fit my, errm, interests *and* the course's subject! I think this will be fun... The other paper I have to do is not so much fun, I'm afraid. The subject is 'What is the status of culture in the writings of Waldo Frank?'
To return to the Farscape paper for a moment... To 'sell' this idea for a paper to my prof I had a loooong discussion with him, about one and a half hours, in English, about Pierre Bourdieu and his ideas of 'distinction', and about the way these ideas can be applied to Farscape fandom and fandom in general. It was fun. I just love to talk English, even though I am aware my accent is terrible (need to go to an English speaking country to lose that!), and the prof I was talking to understood my interest in TV shows to a degree - his subject of study is 'Seinfeld'! :-) So, that was a nice event in my Real Life. Gotta love it when Real Life and obsessions converge....
So... had a little bout of depression yesterday, visiting my parents. It wasn't their fault, but something about being there depressed me. Strange. Part of it actually had not much to do with my parents. It was my recurring 'friendship is transitory, alas' mood; I kinda became aware that I will lose many of the contacts I have at the moment again when I leave this city to study elsewhere. It's a painful realization, and I want to believe I could keep my friends close to me, at least figuratively, but I already went through one such phase of forced separation, and I know the drifting apart is not something that can be avoided completely. So, I'm a little sad in advance. I have every intention of 'holding on' to the people who are close to me now, but life may object... either on my side or on theirs. I think I might write a Methos fanfic about the loss of friends due to moving on, sometime...
On a more positive note, I had a nice talk with one of my professors yesterday and due to this talk I now have a subject for one of my papers that I *really* like. I'm to write about the construction of 'distinction' by popular culture audiences and producers, as exemplified by Farscape fandom and writers! Yay! I actually managed to find a subject that fit my, errm, interests *and* the course's subject! I think this will be fun... The other paper I have to do is not so much fun, I'm afraid. The subject is 'What is the status of culture in the writings of Waldo Frank?'
To return to the Farscape paper for a moment... To 'sell' this idea for a paper to my prof I had a loooong discussion with him, about one and a half hours, in English, about Pierre Bourdieu and his ideas of 'distinction', and about the way these ideas can be applied to Farscape fandom and fandom in general. It was fun. I just love to talk English, even though I am aware my accent is terrible (need to go to an English speaking country to lose that!), and the prof I was talking to understood my interest in TV shows to a degree - his subject of study is 'Seinfeld'! :-) So, that was a nice event in my Real Life. Gotta love it when Real Life and obsessions converge....
