Bit of navel-gazing
Dec. 5th, 2018 08:06 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
hmpfThe eternal paradox: making potential new friends online is much easier than offline, and with each new fandom/interest pursued online there are new opportunities for it. Yet *keeping* friends you made online becomes *harder* than offline, because after a while there are so many, and there’s so little time (and if you’re not in the same fandom anymore you don’t simply “happen” to interact so much anymore, either).
So I dropped out of LJ/DW, lost nearly everybody due to neglect… and then decided to just refrain from making new friends, when I joined tumblr, because I knew I couldn’t take care of them as I should. (Made a couple anyway, though.)
And now I’m in this state of limbo where there’s a bunch of people I still care about but basically *never* talk to (but whose blogs, at least, I still follow); plus a bunch of people I *also* still care about and miss, yet don’t even follow (mostly because I don’t even know their URLs or new nicks), and I guess it would be time to let go, because some things you just can’t salvage after fucking up so thoroughly. But I don’t trust myself to make a new start, because I know I have neither the energy, nor the time, nor the personality to consistently invest in new friendships.
(This is kind of the subtext to all my complaining about not having enough fannish interaction at the moment. - Even if I could find a fandom - would it be wise for me to engage?)
So I dropped out of LJ/DW, lost nearly everybody due to neglect… and then decided to just refrain from making new friends, when I joined tumblr, because I knew I couldn’t take care of them as I should. (Made a couple anyway, though.)
And now I’m in this state of limbo where there’s a bunch of people I still care about but basically *never* talk to (but whose blogs, at least, I still follow); plus a bunch of people I *also* still care about and miss, yet don’t even follow (mostly because I don’t even know their URLs or new nicks), and I guess it would be time to let go, because some things you just can’t salvage after fucking up so thoroughly. But I don’t trust myself to make a new start, because I know I have neither the energy, nor the time, nor the personality to consistently invest in new friendships.
(This is kind of the subtext to all my complaining about not having enough fannish interaction at the moment. - Even if I could find a fandom - would it be wise for me to engage?)
