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hmpfMy "stick to canon" tendencies are also a large part of why Sam's canonically stated but never actually properly seen relationships in 2006 had such importance to me, instead of the seen in detail, but canonically stated to be imaginary, relationships he had in 1973.
I wonder what that says about me. Is it part of some kind of dysfunction, this "deprivileging" of emotional reality?
Though maybe canon in this case just fit my predilections and prejudices best? In reading and writing, I'm into alienation, after all (among other things) and a Sam who is yearning to return to the present is more alienated than a Sam who's just happy in 1973 and feels really at home there. So I needed Sam to care about 2006, I needed those relationships to matter to him, and thus they were real to me. I've been known to ignore parts of canon in other fandoms - in my personal HL universe, for example, the silly Ahriman stuff never happened.
So maybe I only closely stick to canon in shows where canon is inherently compatible with my reading kinks. (I would have liked a happy ending for Sam in LoM, but it would probably have killed my urge to write in the fandom, because where can you go after that, if angst is what you're after? :D)
... I should go and do something important now.
I wonder what that says about me. Is it part of some kind of dysfunction, this "deprivileging" of emotional reality?
Though maybe canon in this case just fit my predilections and prejudices best? In reading and writing, I'm into alienation, after all (among other things) and a Sam who is yearning to return to the present is more alienated than a Sam who's just happy in 1973 and feels really at home there. So I needed Sam to care about 2006, I needed those relationships to matter to him, and thus they were real to me. I've been known to ignore parts of canon in other fandoms - in my personal HL universe, for example, the silly Ahriman stuff never happened.
So maybe I only closely stick to canon in shows where canon is inherently compatible with my reading kinks. (I would have liked a happy ending for Sam in LoM, but it would probably have killed my urge to write in the fandom, because where can you go after that, if angst is what you're after? :D)
... I should go and do something important now.
