Yay.

So, it seems my exams are finals, which apparently means they are not repeatable, i.e. if (when) I fail, I fail. Great. I wonder if there's any chance that the essays I have written will be accredited in Germany even without the exams? After all, we don't *have* exams like that in Germany.

Probably not, though, as the essays are all a lot shorter than what is usual in Germany. So, most likely, I have actually wasted a year here, from a university perspective. Unless I somehow manage not to fail the frelling finals.

Why the frell did I have to procrastinate for five weeks?

Why the frell did I have to find a job in the last three weeks before exams? I guess I could quit, as there isn't a real contract and my employers know that I'm a busy student, but I sort of enjoy working there, and the money is nice, too...

Why the frell did I have to travel to Milton Keynes yesterday to meet a bunch of people? Well, because I thought it would be very nice to meet that bunch of people, and it *was*, but I am really afraid I will fail the frelling exams now.

Oh, frell. Why am I so stupid? All of this could have been avoided if I hadn't been so lazy in the frelling holidays. If I had done any work then, I would have been able to pass the exams, get a job, *and* travel without problems now. Instead I waited until it was too late to do all three successfully.

It's also interesting that my first reaction to finding out that my exams are not repeatable was to go to bed and sleep for five hours - five hours which I could have used for studying.

I haven't eaten anything today, either. Too stressed out. (Plus, I slept - can't eat while sleeping.)

For your amusement...

and to lighten the mood around here a bit, I should also mention that while I slept just now I had a dream which was fuelled very recognisably by a few websites I visited just before falling asleep, and two phonecalls I made. In that dream I was a kid in school together with AnduraNova and Dashan, and - probably due to just having visited Kansas and seen a Lani Tupu discussion there - the daughter of Lani Tupu (I don't even know if he has one in RL, but then, neither am I in school with AnduraNova and Dashan *g*). I was failing an exam in obscure English children's literature because I was more concerned with finding out whether my classmates' claim that that girl was the daughter of Lani Tupu was true.

Which reminds me to thank jazzymegster for drawing one of my other weird Farscape-related dreams. I don't often dream Farscape stuff, but when I do, it's usually really weird, and rarely as clearly related to my RL as the one retold above. Once I actually predicted the outcome of the next episode in a dream - just before Natural Election I dreamed of the Moya crew sitting in a car, arguing who should drive. D'Argo won, and in Natural Election they promptly made him captain. *g*