Essays still not finished, feel like shit, but at least...

[hmpf]

I'm warm now. The two extra layers of clothes really helped. Even my hands are warm now, and they *never* are, when I'm at the computer! It's a miracle! Maybe I should *always* wear this much stuff at the computer!

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I'm wondering... where's the difference between laziness and a real psychological crisis? *Is* there an excuse for the way I'm failing at basically everything right now, or am I just trying to dress up my insufficiencies as something less embarrassing?

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The sad thing is, I could be *done* with the essays by now. I would have been able to go to bed now. There isn't that much more to do on them, just check some footnotes and choose a couple of illustrations. It's ridiculous, really. If I'd actually been able to *focus* on working, without my mind beginning to drift immediately upon maximising the window and looking at the text, I'd be done now.

Comments

[amonitrate.livejournal.com]

I think there's definitely a difference. And I think you probably know inside which one it is... don't discount yourself. I find it's always easy to second-guess myself when it comes to these things, I don't know if you have the same experience.

hang in there.

Hey.

[hmpf.livejournal.com]

Thanks.

I love you. :-)

I so need to get "68 Wives ready" for posting...

Re: Hey.

[amonitrate.livejournal.com]

Hey, hugs.

And no pressure about Wives. When you're ready, you're ready!

[beccatoria.livejournal.com]

Yes there's a difference between laziness and a psychological crisis and then there's also situations where it looks like laziness but might be something else entirely.

For what it's worth - and without it sounding like I'm judging you to be having a psychological crisis - I don't think you're a lazy person. Stress is a horrible trigger for panic, for despair and both of those things trigger procrastination and not getting on with stuff because you've given up not because you're lazy. I think you're stressed. Which may or may not be because you're having a psychological crisis. That's not something I'm qualified to judge.

[ex-emeriin213.livejournal.com]

In relation to schoolwork, what seems like laziness can be actual psychological stress. In my experience, getting so stressed that I'm actually crying over my revision because it all seems pointless, I can't get it and I'm going to fail anyway, might look to others like drama queeny laziness, but to me it's a huge crisis.

And I'm not qualified to give any advice of any kind, but just pace yourself with those essays. It's better to have breaks and rests instead of doing too much at once and having your brain bleed through your ears.