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I think I'm rediscovering play...
Feb. 7th, 2008 01:30 am... as part of the design process. Or maybe discovering it for the first time, if you consider that I spent the entire three years of my professional training in a state of absolute creative block.
It's fascinating - I had something like half a dozen useable ideas today. (Feels like) more than I've had in as many years.
The significance of the fact that this creative explosion happens at a time when I'm paralysed with the fear of starting my M.A. does not escape me. It confirms my theory that I do my best work - or my best creative work, anyway - when I'm procrastinating from 'something more serious'.
Which, frankly, dooms me as an artist, or at least as an independent artist. Because I'll apparently always need something to procrastinate *from* - as soon as art becomes 'the main thing' in my life, I get horrendously blocked. (Not that making a living from selling my jewellery is very likely to work, anyway.)
And if I'm not *very* lucky, it may well happen that whatever job I end up in to make myself procrastinate creatively will take up so much of my time and energy that it will effectively remove the opportunity for creative procrastination.
("Marry a rich man," my mother jokes. But that, of course, would kill my creativity completely. Though I suppose I could then take a part-time job, or do some volunteering, and be creative in my still copious spare time. Yes, I think I like that plan. ;-))
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Your jewellery link for the day: Giampaolo Babetto. One of the people who defined modern jewellery. Half the students at my former school still copy him. *g*
It's fascinating - I had something like half a dozen useable ideas today. (Feels like) more than I've had in as many years.
The significance of the fact that this creative explosion happens at a time when I'm paralysed with the fear of starting my M.A. does not escape me. It confirms my theory that I do my best work - or my best creative work, anyway - when I'm procrastinating from 'something more serious'.
Which, frankly, dooms me as an artist, or at least as an independent artist. Because I'll apparently always need something to procrastinate *from* - as soon as art becomes 'the main thing' in my life, I get horrendously blocked. (Not that making a living from selling my jewellery is very likely to work, anyway.)
And if I'm not *very* lucky, it may well happen that whatever job I end up in to make myself procrastinate creatively will take up so much of my time and energy that it will effectively remove the opportunity for creative procrastination.
("Marry a rich man," my mother jokes. But that, of course, would kill my creativity completely. Though I suppose I could then take a part-time job, or do some volunteering, and be creative in my still copious spare time. Yes, I think I like that plan. ;-))
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Your jewellery link for the day: Giampaolo Babetto. One of the people who defined modern jewellery. Half the students at my former school still copy him. *g*
