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hmpfI tend not to think about that while I'm writing, because, really, thinking about that kind of thing when it takes you years and years to finish something is kinda counterproductive. Usually I don't even know if a given fandom will still be around in any significant way by the time I finish a fic.
But, obviously, after working on something for so long it becomes infused with a lot of myself, and yeah, I want all those years to... I dunno. Have some sort of positive result. Seeing this fic sink like a stone would be painful. Even though I don't exactly write *for* an audience/for recognition.
Half of the time I still think it's a pretty damn great fic (not perfect, not even close, but still - pretty great). Then again, the other half of the time I feel like it has all kinds of serious issues. I don't think I can really judge which of these perceptions is right.
I am aware that there's also the possibility that it's neither great, nor hampered by serious issues, but simply kinda blah and mediocre. That would be the worst possible verdict, of course. Who would want to spend four years producing something that is just blah?
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lifein1973, it could still, eventually, turn into a sleeper hit on AO3 or The Collators' Den. ;-) Something a bit like that seems to be happening to 68 Wives at the moment - that has been getting a lot of kudos in the last couple of weeks, although it was uploaded more than a year ago.
Speaking of archives: I do need to get back to being an active admin at the Den. I really do. Kind of shying back from all the work potentially involved in familiarising myself with how it all works now, though...
ETA: Please don't misunderstand this as me begging for feedback. I don't want pity feedback, nor friendship feedback. I want you to comment if you feel genuinely moved to comment - and only then. Never, ever feel obligated to comment on my fic.
This post is just random pre-publication angsting.
But, obviously, after working on something for so long it becomes infused with a lot of myself, and yeah, I want all those years to... I dunno. Have some sort of positive result. Seeing this fic sink like a stone would be painful. Even though I don't exactly write *for* an audience/for recognition.
Half of the time I still think it's a pretty damn great fic (not perfect, not even close, but still - pretty great). Then again, the other half of the time I feel like it has all kinds of serious issues. I don't think I can really judge which of these perceptions is right.
I am aware that there's also the possibility that it's neither great, nor hampered by serious issues, but simply kinda blah and mediocre. That would be the worst possible verdict, of course. Who would want to spend four years producing something that is just blah?
Of course, even if it should sink like a stone in
lifein1973, it could still, eventually, turn into a sleeper hit on AO3 or The Collators' Den. ;-) Something a bit like that seems to be happening to 68 Wives at the moment - that has been getting a lot of kudos in the last couple of weeks, although it was uploaded more than a year ago.Speaking of archives: I do need to get back to being an active admin at the Den. I really do. Kind of shying back from all the work potentially involved in familiarising myself with how it all works now, though...
ETA: Please don't misunderstand this as me begging for feedback. I don't want pity feedback, nor friendship feedback. I want you to comment if you feel genuinely moved to comment - and only then. Never, ever feel obligated to comment on my fic.
This post is just random pre-publication angsting.
