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The TBFC is still the coolest fan event I've experienced. (Yes, including my one and so far only Worldcon. Though that was pretty great, too.)

For some bizarre reason, there are few things more relaxing than falling asleep in a sleeping bag on an inflatable mattress in front of an ep of Farscape (or something else) that's being projected onto a wall at half past two a.m. Never mind that sleeping bags are never particularly comfortable, and neither are inflatable mattresses; never mind that in any other situation it would be impossible to sleep through the kind of noise produced by a subwoofer etc., not to mention the guy snoring merrily away two mattresses over from yours. Both nights I spent there I fell asleep with the most extraordinary feeling of peace and contentment.

Which is, probably, a slightly odd thing to feel while watching/falling asleep during the more angsty and dramatic eps of Farscape - but there it is. It's largely due to the company, I think.

Farscape is, of course, still *the* best at delivering 'my' kind of angst. Oh John. *hugs her astronut*

We fell asleep to Liars, Guns and Money yesterday, which is pretty much the apex of Scorpy-induced John!angst. John, pulling a gun on Stark. John, trying to put the explodey stuff on the cooling rod, talking to himself, swatting at the voices in his head. John confronting Scorpy, defying him with a desperate joke, shaking and contorted with the effort of even that much resistance, then crawling away singing. (Seeing a clip of that scene in English, back in 2000 or 2001, was what made me realise I really needed to see this show in its original language - there was no way the German dubbing could have captured the mix of despair and defiance in Ben Browder's voice.)

And that's just the first ep of the three-parter, of course. In the third part, we actually see the exact moment John breaks - in the middle of a firefight, after a last act of resistance, an inarticulate scream and some helpless gun-pointing. There's a point at which he just stops: stops screaming, lowers the gun, and just stands there, right in the line of fire - blood trickling from his nose, a terrifying sign that there is something very wrong indeed inside his brain... Aeryn has to bodily push him away to save his life, and for the rest of the firefight he sits by the side looking dazed and empty, the blood from his nose now copious, while gorgeous, deadly Aeryn defends him from Scorpius's peacekeepers with her big gun.

Oh, John.

(And no, the gender-bending symbols in that scene are not of my invention, they're in there all right. That's Farscape for you. The woman shoots; the man bleeds. And this is not an anime nosebleed.)

Date: 2010-05-25 07:44 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] beccatoria.livejournal.com
Fantastic :D

The two TBFCs I went to were totally fabulous and I'm so glad it's still ongoing. <3

Date: 2010-05-27 07:23 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] stabbim.livejournal.com
Loved TBFC, too, as always it's great fun.

Btw, can you tell me where I can get that Terra Firma John fanvid (I think it was called "Stars")? That'd be great.

It's shrunk a bit...

Date: 2010-05-30 10:26 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hmpf.livejournal.com
but then, size doesn't matter!

It would be so great if you could make it to another TBFC sometime. Kev would be welcome, too! (One day, when we all have good jobs and a lot of money, eh? ;-))

Vid link

Date: 2010-05-30 10:29 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hmpf.livejournal.com
Sorry, forgot about this for a little while - I was busy listening to the radio for a uni assignment all weekend. ;-)

I think the vid you mean is "Through Glass" by Jamieson. You can find it here: http://www.angelfire.com/planet/jamieson_glass/

There is a vid called "Stars", too, by Leviathan, but we didn't watch that at the TBFC. Anyway, have a link for that one, too: http://www.neuralcluster.net/index.php?option=com_docman&task=cat_view&gid=14&dir=DESC&order=name&Itemid=27&limit=5&limitstart=5

Re: Vid link

Date: 2010-06-02 04:28 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] stabbim.livejournal.com
Thanks for those links. I meant "Through Glass", of course. :)

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