>I always assumed everyone lived multiple realities in their head.
Well, I do have multiple realities in my head; always have had - all the stories I'm writing, plus several I'm not writing but fantasising about, are pretty much non-stop present in my mind. I think I spend about 80% of my waking time at least partly immersed in some form of internal storytelling/fantasising.
But it's a very conscious act - like playing with a model train set or with puppets; none of it has a life of its own, and there are no characters who 'are me' in any sense of the word. They're just characters in stories; puppets I move about. I'm always aware I'm playing.
(I think this is actually one of the things that makes writing so difficult for me. Meta I've read from other writers makes it seem very likely that most writers have much more 'autonmous' inner worlds and characters, and that in some strange way, they often just sort of transcribe what 'happens' in their head. With me, nothing (or very little - I do have my moments of creative transcendence, but they're rare) simply 'happens'. Everything has to be *done*, consciously, deliberately, by me - and sometimes I just don't know what to 'do', because a situation or a character is really very strange to me. It takes a lot of work to get into the right mindset.)
> I go into a fugue state, where I'm only marginally aware of my surroundings
I think I'm a bit like that when I'm fully immersed in one of my internal stories (I call them 'mindfic.') But it's not something that happens to me so much as something that I choose to let happen to me - in fact, something I strive for, when I'm in the mood for it. I don't always manage to achieve it.
So, again, a very conscious act, like willing yourself into a trance.
Your bunny elaborations here sound very good, btw. ;-) (Did you check out the later pages of the thread I linked to? There were some details from the show that fit the scenario eerily well there... at least I think it was on the later pages.)
>It is also interesting in ref. to "little Sammy" as, usually in the extreme multiples, the 'core' personality is a child. The child who is never there, really, in the show, but who is always present. Hmmm...
Remember, there's also Test Card Girl... (Hmm.... mindfuck time: the core personality is TCG, and Sam was her very first multiple!)
>she whould could capture the depth of a multiple's perceptions well.
No doubt about that. But sometimes I want something more than 'just' depth, if that makes sense? I guess this is a remnant of the more immature reader I used to be, the reader who would only read novels, and didn't 'get' poetry and short stories, because she wanted/needed all that expansive space to get properly, deeply invested in a story. Ironically, I myself am not a writer who can write the kind of stuff that that type of reader would enjoy... I think that, should I ever manage to write something original, it will probably be short stories, by far the most unsatisfying genre for me as a reader. (I do 'get' poetry, nowadays, but wouldn't want to write it. I know that both of my LoM stories published so far look like poetry, but they're not. Honestly. They're just me playing a bit with form-follows-content stuff.)
>and the Torture Twins won't get the sobby, crying Sam they are hoping for. *sigh*
From the conversation in the chatroom recently I got the impression they mainly just want lots of kinky sex involving Sam!abuse... ;-) Anyway, if it's any consolation, I think your projected themes sound very promising, and while I rate less than a zero on the slave!kink scale (in fact, I have a slight squick there), this does sound like something I may want to check out eventually.
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Multiple realities & bunny talk
Date: 2008-11-21 10:04 pm (UTC)Well, I do have multiple realities in my head; always have had - all the stories I'm writing, plus several I'm not writing but fantasising about, are pretty much non-stop present in my mind. I think I spend about 80% of my waking time at least partly immersed in some form of internal storytelling/fantasising.
But it's a very conscious act - like playing with a model train set or with puppets; none of it has a life of its own, and there are no characters who 'are me' in any sense of the word. They're just characters in stories; puppets I move about. I'm always aware I'm playing.
(I think this is actually one of the things that makes writing so difficult for me. Meta I've read from other writers makes it seem very likely that most writers have much more 'autonmous' inner worlds and characters, and that in some strange way, they often just sort of transcribe what 'happens' in their head. With me, nothing (or very little - I do have my moments of creative transcendence, but they're rare) simply 'happens'. Everything has to be *done*, consciously, deliberately, by me - and sometimes I just don't know what to 'do', because a situation or a character is really very strange to me. It takes a lot of work to get into the right mindset.)
> I go into a fugue state, where I'm only marginally aware of my surroundings
I think I'm a bit like that when I'm fully immersed in one of my internal stories (I call them 'mindfic.') But it's not something that happens to me so much as something that I choose to let happen to me - in fact, something I strive for, when I'm in the mood for it. I don't always manage to achieve it.
So, again, a very conscious act, like willing yourself into a trance.
Your bunny elaborations here sound very good, btw. ;-) (Did you check out the later pages of the thread I linked to? There were some details from the show that fit the scenario eerily well there... at least I think it was on the later pages.)
>It is also interesting in ref. to "little Sammy" as, usually in the extreme multiples, the 'core' personality is a child. The child who is never there, really, in the show, but who is always present. Hmmm...
Remember, there's also Test Card Girl... (Hmm.... mindfuck time: the core personality is TCG, and Sam was her very first multiple!)
>she whould could capture the depth of a multiple's perceptions well.
No doubt about that. But sometimes I want something more than 'just' depth, if that makes sense? I guess this is a remnant of the more immature reader I used to be, the reader who would only read novels, and didn't 'get' poetry and short stories, because she wanted/needed all that expansive space to get properly, deeply invested in a story. Ironically, I myself am not a writer who can write the kind of stuff that that type of reader would enjoy... I think that, should I ever manage to write something original, it will probably be short stories, by far the most unsatisfying genre for me as a reader. (I do 'get' poetry, nowadays, but wouldn't want to write it. I know that both of my LoM stories published so far look like poetry, but they're not. Honestly. They're just me playing a bit with form-follows-content stuff.)
>and the Torture Twins won't get the sobby, crying Sam they are hoping for. *sigh*
From the conversation in the chatroom recently I got the impression they mainly just want lots of kinky sex involving Sam!abuse... ;-) Anyway, if it's any consolation, I think your projected themes sound very promising, and while I rate less than a zero on the slave!kink scale (in fact, I have a slight squick there), this does sound like something I may want to check out eventually.
Why do you think Loz will think it trite, btw?