Ah well, can't hurt to have that clarified explicitly in the comments, anyway.
>writing used to be a way of getting people to like me.
Hehe. I guess I gave up on the idea of people liking me in seventh grade. As you can see from my recent career in LOM fandom, I'm now making something of an art of not being liked. *g*
>Whereas now it has far surpassed that and turned into something I want to be good at, just for the sake of being good.
And I have always wanted to be a writer. Always, since even before I could write - since kindergarten. Unfortunately I'm not exactly madly talented, so it took me until 27 to get even remotely good at it - and now I'm nearly 31 and still have loads to learn before I can even think about going pro.
(Of course, the situation is additionally complicated by my switching writing languages at age 23. Before I started writing fanfiction I used to write in German. Oddly enough, I only began to feel like I was coming into my own after the switch to English. Which is why I intend to stick with it.)
I do think I may be able to reach a level where I *can* think about going pro. It's just going to take me a lot longer than it would take a more talented writer. I keep telling myself that people like E. Annie Proulx and Louis Begley published their first novels in their late fifties, so it's okay to be a late bloomer as a writer... *g*
>Are you sure? I feel positive I told you that it was very bitter. Hahaha. Maybe I just thought it. It is, you know. Very bitter. Brilliant. But cruel. I rather love it for those reasons.
Well, thanks. It *is* bitter, yes. I funnelled all my post-2.08 bitterness in there.
BTW, I rather liked the 'you're very mean' comment, too. Like Reg Cole, I'm embracing the role of being a villain in this fandom now... ;-)
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Oh, okay.
Date: 2007-05-17 02:39 am (UTC)>writing used to be a way of getting people to like me.
Hehe. I guess I gave up on the idea of people liking me in seventh grade. As you can see from my recent career in LOM fandom, I'm now making something of an art of not being liked. *g*
>Whereas now it has far surpassed that and turned into something I want to be good at, just for the sake of being good.
And I have always wanted to be a writer. Always, since even before I could write - since kindergarten. Unfortunately I'm not exactly madly talented, so it took me until 27 to get even remotely good at it - and now I'm nearly 31 and still have loads to learn before I can even think about going pro.
(Of course, the situation is additionally complicated by my switching writing languages at age 23. Before I started writing fanfiction I used to write in German. Oddly enough, I only began to feel like I was coming into my own after the switch to English. Which is why I intend to stick with it.)
I do think I may be able to reach a level where I *can* think about going pro. It's just going to take me a lot longer than it would take a more talented writer. I keep telling myself that people like E. Annie Proulx and Louis Begley published their first novels in their late fifties, so it's okay to be a late bloomer as a writer... *g*
>Are you sure? I feel positive I told you that it was very bitter. Hahaha. Maybe I just thought it. It is, you know. Very bitter. Brilliant. But cruel. I rather love it for those reasons.
Well, thanks. It *is* bitter, yes. I funnelled all my post-2.08 bitterness in there.
BTW, I rather liked the 'you're very mean' comment, too. Like Reg Cole, I'm embracing the role of being a villain in this fandom now... ;-)