Main project decided

After some dithering, I've decided to make Cut Along the Dotted Line my main writing project for now. That's the Sam/Maya thing (aka "the brain damage fic" - though really, that sounds much, much worse than it is, I swear) that used to be called Möglichkeitssinn and before that was called, blandly, Moving On. It's an ancient one (though not as ancient as my FS and HL WiPs, of course), started even before The MAD Doctrine, and it's probably gonna be short - it's something like a page and a half now, and for the past three years or so has only been shrinking, rather than growing, although I do need to start adding new stuff to it now that I've done some thorough weeding.

It seems fitting, to look at Sam's other messed up relationship, now that I've done Sam/Annie.

All this sounds rather more het-shippy than it really is, btw. This is still me writing, after all, and I don't do shippy. (I only do messy. Though, seriously, this is one of my less messy fics about people not really talking to each other.)

This fic has resisted me rather strongly in the past, mostly because it seems almost impossible that Maya could stay with Sam, yet she does in this fic and I still don't quite understand why and she's not really telling me. And Maya has other shit going on that I'm not sure how to handle, as well. But last week something seemed to move, although only infinitesimally, perhaps. Anyway, it feels slightly more manageable to actually add something to this now, so I'm going to try. Hard.

Shippiness

It just occurred to me that I've never focused on relationships as much, in any of my fandoms, as in Life on Mars. Even though most of my fic here still isn't properly shippy as such, Sam's relationships are an important element in nearly all of my stories, published and in progress. In earlier fandoms, I focused much more on "solo angst" and solo character studies and so on.

It's very difficult to write Sam without giving him someone to interact with (which mostly means, someone to hurt, though usually inadvertently).

Actually, this may be due to the way the last episode changed my view of him, though. Before that (and, to some degree, after) I enjoyed Sam-focused angst (based on the coma/time travel/insanity aspect) perfectly well. I can't seem to write it, though - not without adding the mess of his relationships. It seems, I dunno, indulgent? Not true to his character?

Oh look, I meta'd. (A tiny little bit.)