Art

[hmpf]

I just looked through all my old paintings and drawings, my materials - watercolours, ink, brushes, pens, my books about medieval art... It's a hobby I gave up nearly ten years ago.

God, I was *good*! I'd forgotten.

I should just divide my life up equally between writing, jewellery making and painting. Who needs uni or a job?

Right. Anyone wanna sponsor me?

*sigh*

Gonna get some of this stuff scanned sometime, to put it up on my website. A monument to the Hmpf that could have been.

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Thing is... I'm actually good enough, probably, to do some of these things on at *least* a semi-professional level (well, I'm officially a professional jeweller, but I'm so out of practice it's almost not true anymore). There *are* people who are making a living from this kind of stuff who aren't any better at it than I am. I just *know* a bit about what it means to make a living like this, and so I know it requires *massive* amounts of work and still only results in a very precarious living, unless you're exceptionally lucky. And I'm just too afraid to make the leap. To take that kind of chance.

I suppose I can still do this if I don't find a job after uni.

(Hmpf: Planning a life to fail. And I'd probably be happy about it, on some level. No hindrances anymore to that coveted bohemian lifestyle once you've thoroughly failed in 'normal' society...)

Comments

[dune-drd.livejournal.com]

Let me see? I've never known you painted as well

Well, I'd just about forgotten about it, too! *g*

[hmpf.livejournal.com]

I was *really* surprised by how good some of this stuff was. One piece fell out of a book where apparently I'd used it as a bookmark, and it just sort of... stunned me. Like, "did I *really* make this?" I'd completely forgotten about most of it. Will get it scanned, I promise. There isn't much left, I'm afraid - I gave most of it away, way back when. But looking at the stuff that's left reminded me - somewhat painfully - of some great ideas I had back then, for really ambitious pieces I never got around to.

Maybe someday...

[ailanreanter.livejournal.com]

Scan! Scan! :D

A good friend of mine makes her living as a "Gerichtszeichnerin" (I don't know the English word for it) and though she has very regularly very big ups and downs and even very much trouble to get enough money to pay the rent with when she has a month with few comissions, she never ceases to say that she wouldn't want to do anythingelse.
She's doing that job for years now and is not regretting it.

As for sponsoring:
From that friend mentioned above I know there is a so called "Künstler Sozialkasse" that helps artists with their costs.
How much they pay and how you qualify for that I don't know, though. But I could ask my friend if you want to know more.

I know about the Künstlersozialkasse.

[hmpf.livejournal.com]

I know artists, too, so, need to bother your friend. I can ask them. But I know enough about what that kind of life is like to know I don't have what it takes. Or maybe I'm not desperate enough yet. Maybe I really need to fail at everything else before I can dare to be an artist.

Re: I know about the Künstlersozialkasse.

[ailanreanter.livejournal.com]

Ok. :) Just thought I mention.
It is sure a hard thing to decide, I agree. I hope you'll get a chance to do what you really long to do one day.

Re: I know about the Künstlersozialkasse.

[ankae.livejournal.com]

So, if I wanted to see you as an artist, I'd have to wish you failure? :p

Apparently so.

[hmpf.livejournal.com]

At least in my 'mainstream' endeavours, like university. ;-) Obviously not in the realm of art.

[nick-101.livejournal.com]

I'd like to see your old arts. :D

I'm looking into getting them scanned.

[hmpf.livejournal.com]

Since I don't own a scanner this requires a bit of an organising effort.

[mmapmaker.livejournal.com]

Oh, I hope you scan and share your art! I'd love to see it.

I'm trying to get it scanned.

[hmpf.livejournal.com]

May take a while, though, as I don't have a scanner.

Nachmacher or soulmate?

[ankae.livejournal.com]

Interesting. I just re-discovered art: Designed some nice bonecarvings in the last 5 months, and since December I'm back into drawing. Hard to get into it again after so many years.

Nachmacher.

[hmpf.livejournal.com]

I'm spying on you to replicate recent trends in your life. ;-)