Art

[hmpf]

I just looked through all my old paintings and drawings, my materials - watercolours, ink, brushes, pens, my books about medieval art... It's a hobby I gave up nearly ten years ago.

God, I was *good*! I'd forgotten.

I should just divide my life up equally between writing, jewellery making and painting. Who needs uni or a job?

Right. Anyone wanna sponsor me?

*sigh*

Gonna get some of this stuff scanned sometime, to put it up on my website. A monument to the Hmpf that could have been.

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Thing is... I'm actually good enough, probably, to do some of these things on at *least* a semi-professional level (well, I'm officially a professional jeweller, but I'm so out of practice it's almost not true anymore). There *are* people who are making a living from this kind of stuff who aren't any better at it than I am. I just *know* a bit about what it means to make a living like this, and so I know it requires *massive* amounts of work and still only results in a very precarious living, unless you're exceptionally lucky. And I'm just too afraid to make the leap. To take that kind of chance.

I suppose I can still do this if I don't find a job after uni.

(Hmpf: Planning a life to fail. And I'd probably be happy about it, on some level. No hindrances anymore to that coveted bohemian lifestyle once you've thoroughly failed in 'normal' society...)

Comments

I know about the Künstlersozialkasse.

[hmpf.livejournal.com]

I know artists, too, so, need to bother your friend. I can ask them. But I know enough about what that kind of life is like to know I don't have what it takes. Or maybe I'm not desperate enough yet. Maybe I really need to fail at everything else before I can dare to be an artist.

Re: I know about the Künstlersozialkasse.

[ailanreanter.livejournal.com]

Ok. :) Just thought I mention.
It is sure a hard thing to decide, I agree. I hope you'll get a chance to do what you really long to do one day.

Re: I know about the Künstlersozialkasse.

[ankae.livejournal.com]

So, if I wanted to see you as an artist, I'd have to wish you failure? :p

Apparently so.

[hmpf.livejournal.com]

At least in my 'mainstream' endeavours, like university. ;-) Obviously not in the realm of art.