Interview today:

[hmpf]

Complete, unmitigated disaster. Presented myself from my most socially incompetent (etc.) side, and in the course of that managed to appear fairly incompetent in every other way, too - incompetent to use my native language, even! I operated under a near-complete blackout - couldn't remember the names of authors I know well, couldn't describe what I'd done in my M.A. thesis, couldn't describe my experience with New Media... etc.

I'll bury my mortification under a load of Doctor Who now.

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PS: Thanks to everyone - especially diotimah, who truly went above and beyond! - who helped me with the Ph.D. thing and related questions recently! <3

(This is not related, I just thought that, now that I can sort of... decompress, finally, I should take a moment to say thanks. I didn't, before, because the Ph.D. thing combined with the (useless) preparations for the interview took up all my time/energy.)

Comments

[beccatoria.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

Aaaah, go bury yourself in Doctor Who and try not to worry about it - it's done now, and in the past and you're awesome. :)

[diotimah.livejournal.com]

... and although it's not really a consolation, at least I'm *really* sympathetic - because the same thing happened to me last year at a job interview for a really interesting position. I also suddenly couldn't even describe my thesis project - and, hearing myself, thought it sounded lame and unconvincing, which made me feel even more awkward. I felt so completely stupid afterwards ...

In my experience, though, my 'performance' in these things *very much* depends on the 'chemistry' between the people interviewing me and myself. Sometimes it works - and then I can appear eloquent, smart etc. And sometimes it doesn't, meaning I don't think about bringing up my 'strong points', and, in the worst case, may even mean I'm completely lost, repeat myself etc. It's like two entirely different persons.

Have you heard anything from them, though? Maybe you're just self-conscious, and the impression you actually made was quite different from what you believe it to be.

Oh, and I'm delighted you appreciate my help with the 'PhD thingie'.:) In my opinion, it really has potential. And I knew you had a job interview today, so I thought you were busy (and nervous).

[dashan.livejournal.com]

Hak es ab unter Erfahrung. Beimnächsten Mal läuft es wieder besser. :)