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I should add:
the biggest "brain freeze factor" in the previous glimpse into my psyche is the "social stuff" - I can make reasonably good To Do lists for things like fixing my bike and doing the dishes, but I'm unable to handle my social life in a similar manner. (Also, the unfixed bike - which tends to come at the bottom of my To Do list and so has remained unfixed for, err, years *is ashamed* - does not cause me anywhere near the constant emotional anguish that my neglected friends do.) So, since I can't handle social life properly, instead I kind of don't handle it at all, drifting further and further away from everyone I care about. Which sucks and makes me and - probably - everyone involved unhappy.
I'm afraid of taking this particular problem to a therapist, though, because I'm afraid the therapist would tell me to decide which people I "*really* care about", and essentially ditch all the others. Because I care about *all* of them, and while there are a handful of people I feel closest to (an emotional fact which, by now, is not actually founded on any kind of "real" fact anymore, as I don't see or talk to any of these people on a regular basis), I would not want to lose the rest, either.
Except of course I'm currently losing everyone.
I'm afraid of taking this particular problem to a therapist, though, because I'm afraid the therapist would tell me to decide which people I "*really* care about", and essentially ditch all the others. Because I care about *all* of them, and while there are a handful of people I feel closest to (an emotional fact which, by now, is not actually founded on any kind of "real" fact anymore, as I don't see or talk to any of these people on a regular basis), I would not want to lose the rest, either.
Except of course I'm currently losing everyone.